Im going, because you never ask me to stay.
Bye Steph. Thanks for everything. :’)
When i read this post, it reminds me of Sofri. He has been there for me for the past 3 years and 5 months now, be it good or bad, hurtful or not, he’ll still be there for me. And i was blind enough not to see any of this.
He’d seen me with a number of guys before, seen me being so loving and caring towards them, seen me crying over them, seen me getting hurt by them, eventhough it hurt him too, he is still there, always ready to catch me when i fall. He even wanna stood up for me by confronting these guys but i always hold him back.
I remembered when i told you i was hungry in the middle of the night, it was already midnight and you dont have the car with you. Instead, you cab down to buy food for me, hang it outside my door and cab back home. Then you called me, telling me to open the door and i saw that red plastic bag. Thank you for being so sweet.
I remembered that one night, i told you i wanna lose weight but i was so lazy to go jogging. The next day, you called me at 8am telling me you are outside my house. You literally dragged me out of bed and went to ecp to jog. Haha. Thank you for motivating me always.
I remembered the first day you asked me out on a date, you told me you wanna fetch me from RP, i said okay. I thought you knew your way there, until i found a piece of paper that you tried to hide, writing down the expressways and the exits you have to take. I was impressed by your determination. Thank you for not giving up.
I remembered how you would skip school, eventhough you know it might affect your grades, just to accompany me to polyclinic because i was down with fever. Thank you for being so caring towards me.
I remembered how you would stood up for me when any of your family members have bad impressions of me, you make sure they dont have any negative thoughts about me. Thank you for being by my side.
I remembered how you would cry yourself to sleep every night when we broke up or when im dating someone else. How you would tell me these guys couldnt take care of me and that you can do better than them,how you would beg me to come back to you but i refused. I should have listened to you back then. Because honestly, no one could love me better than you do. No one could care for me better than you. And no man would stick with a girl, after she’s hurt him a million times again and again, and still love her like the first time they met. Thank you for still loving me.
I dont know what is it that you see in me that made it hard for you to move on but thank you for always being there for me,even up till now.
And if theres one thing that i regret the most, it would be me not being there for you when you needed someone the most. 😔